Hmmm..It's true what they say that "when one door closes, another one opens".

Sometimes when we really want something, we automatically think that there's no other option. it's either what we want comes to pass or we loose everything we have ever worked for in order to achieve where we think we ought to be. When that vision we envision doesn't come to pass or rather fails, we beat our selves up over it for days, weeks and even months.

But here is the thing, one must know that if this fail, there is always another plan (like I use to say, there is always a plan B). Although, it might feel as if there isn't one but trust me there is another plan that surpasses our vision we previously envisioned earlier on. And this time, this is the plan God has set in front of us or rather what He has destined for us.
At times, we do things that we think are right because it absolutely makes sense to us to the extent that we don't even pray over it and when any those 'things' we are doing fails, we blame God about those mishaps.

Back in my homeland, I use to watch lots of TV shows and one day, I wasn't even paying attention clearly to what the scenes were all about. As this actress on screen said "Every disappointment is a blessing", it caught my attention. Meanwhile, I was still a kid and didn't know what it meant. All I was just thinking was 'Now I have a new quote that I can always use in my english essays or add to my other quotes (because I love and used to keep quotes in my brain).

Some time ago, my family and I were about to move out of our apartment because we had a plus one to our family and we thought it was best if we raised the newborn in a new environment. We had an agreement with an old man that we would move into a small apartment for a while till he finishes off the house construction (which was were we would move in a mont time). A month passed by and then two months passed by and there still hadn't been no progress concerning the house and even the little apartment we wanted to manage (as there were no furnitures in the kitchen). We later realise that this old man was playing us and just extorting money from us for no legit reason.
Meanwhile, we still had a month till we need to vacate our present apartment (because we already told the owner of our current apartment that we were moving out in three months earlier before we knew what was going on with this old man). Then we add to start looking for other options available now. We actually thought we were going to be homeless because it is nearly impossible to get a place to stay considering you have to come for visitation and then signing the contracts and then waiting for those in the house to leave the place.
Then, we saw an apartment that was better that our current one because it had an elevator and we prayed (and even fasted about it) because we already set out mind that we were going to get it. Two weeks and some days before we need to leave out place, we were told the apartment had been given to another person. This broke our heart into pieces. We didn't know what else to do. Then, we thought or at least I was thinking that God was not hearing our prayers. My parents spent days online checking for vacancies not minding how long the distance would be to our their jobs and our schools because at this point...
One day, I came back from school and I heard everyone singing, dancing shouting 'Hallelujah' and I asked what that was all about. I was told we got a new place and not only that, it was a HOUSE and even this was much more better than the apartment and a mini house we didn't get back then.

Then, this quote came back to life and I told my brother "every disappointment is a blessing".  Hadn't been we have gotten that apartment in the first place, we wouldn't have seen that house or hadn't been we had been in that manageable apartment, we could have been thrown out and be told that the reconstruction can't be processed and then, we would have been in a bad state.

In conclusion, When something doesn't go our way, let's not cry ourselves over it. All we need to do is pick ourselves up and move on. Although moving on might be very difficult but try concentrating on the positive thing you have left which could eventually help you move on with your life because if you don't you could miss out on better things that are ahead of you. When we get disappointed, let's always have at the back of our mind that God has install a better plan for us.

Express yourself

So...this is going to be my first time ever blogging. Don't know what guide there is to start this sort of blog but I'll just go with the flow. I'm not so sure as to why I'm writing this out, not especially when they are my inner thoughts. I might not know but I know one thing is certain. Deep down, I feel that someone where ever he/she may be could relate to what ever I'm about to blog and what I'll be blogging in future.

Have you ever felt like you're piling so many thoughts and feelings up to the point where you think these stuffs (don't know what those stuffs might be) in your brain might explode either while you are in class, in bed or elsewhere to such an extent that you don't know how to keep track of them all and worst case scenario, you don't have answers to some questions that keeps popping up? 

Have you ever felt like sometimes you don't know who to tell your problems (not even your close ones for specific or no reason) or rather, don't know how to express it out in sentences?

Sometimes, one might have a feeling of something but find it hard to express and it's okay to feel that way cause not all feelings are expressible (so I think). And even when they are expressible, they are usually not a hundred percent expressed well. But that's how expressible it can be expressed which is close to a 'hundred percent' because it is better than when not expressed at all. 

Here is one thing, expressing one's feeling is one step closer to solving any issue one may be facing. Why? Because trying to admit and express one's feeling will truly help one's state of mind either mentally or physically. This will not only help one but will also be of a greater help to those surrounding one. This includes family, friends, co workers, etc. Although, trying to figure out what one's feeling is at times could be difficult (this meaning it could put one in an uncomfortable state) but it's always a process (trust me). And like a saying goes "Prevention is better than cure". In other words, it's better to figure out one's feeling when that feeling hits us before it accumulates and later becomes an unbearable burden to the extent that one start to act (anger for no reason) out on others around. This could potentially inflict pains on your loved ones because it's either they don't know what's going on inside you (which they don't unless you tell them which you also don't have to) or they don't know how to help. Though, they might try reaching out, but it's either their reaching out to one is a wrong timing or they are reaching out the wrong way. 

In a nutshell, if you can align yourself to colour red above, know that you must always try and reflect on your feelings no matter the case may be (before sleeping). 

If you can relate to colour yellow above, know that it's alright to feel like you can talk to close ones about it but there always other ways. If you have a journal, you can always try to pen those thoughts and feelings down. For others, you can always tell it through singing, playing either pianos, guitar, etc. Better still, you can try going to the park and talking to a nice strangers, I repeat 'NICE strangers' because it's sometimes easier to talk to someone you don't know to get all your feelings out and in turn have a feeling of how they respond (from their own perceptiveness to you) rather than those who are closer to you (because we might feel that they are giving us a bias opinion). 

Also, not having answers to questions one might be curious about is totally normal. As time goes meaning as we grow and pass through all phases of what life has to offer us, we'll eventually get some answers to some questions bugging us. 

For those who can't express in sentences, try expressing in word (or try blurting out a word when feelings are running through you). Build up on that word and before you'll realise, you have more and more words which later turns into sentences (and WHALA! you will be able to express).

This is me trying to express myself. Always find a way to express out your thoughts and feelings and by this, I don't mean in a violent way or abusive way. 

Finally, remember that if you are determined to figure out something in any state of your life, know that you can actually achieve that goal, it just's a matter of time and the big question WHEN? And this depends on YOU and GOD (for those who believe there is one).